i just turned 23 and am doing great at a lot of things, mainly school. i'm going for my third 4.0 in a row and i'm starting to help with research in the psych department. a bunch of people left for wpa (western psychological assocation) conference today, and i hope it's me next year. i'm also training for a the seattle rock n' roll 1/2 marathon in june, i'm just worried i won't be able to do it. it's funny, stamina wise i'm fine on my runs, but there are some days when my legs just want to quit, but like most things in life, i've just got to push through. besides, a 1/2 marathon is small potatoes in the running world...

my dad went to treatment for the second time and is doing really well. i'm seeing a person that has been hidden behind drug addiction for so long, and its refreshing. this feeling of happiness is scary though. there is a huge potential he could relapse. i know if he does it won't be the end of the world, but i just want this for him...so bad. he has been the happiest he's been in so long. i know i can't want it for him, i'm just glad he wants it for himself too. i just don't ever want him to get to the point he was, sleeping in a barn with rats in 20 degree weather. i love him so much, so so much.

i'm still struggling a lot with certain issues. i should be proud of my body and all that it does for me, i work it very hard, and it still continues to perform. i need to get over this hating my body and the way i look. i just see all the things that could be improved and want to fix them. it's the perfectionist in me.

i'm confident in who i am and what i stand for. i'm a good, honest, and loving person. i have so much to offer the world, but it's hard to remember sometimes.

i want to fall in love...a wonderful kind of love. i have to say, it would probably be more doable if boys approached me once in a while. another reason i feel like a disease. it's like i'm too nerdy for some guys and not smart or cool enough for other ones. i'm unique...i suppose that's just not appreciated.

my snuggy and i will have a nice long life together. haha.

i have just rambled on and on. it's time for me to go to bed. 5:30 comes fast. :)