We splashed into the deep blue sea, and how it was a wonderful splash!

We were all together and having fun. I saw her 3 hours before she died. In 3 hours she went from vibrant and happy to dead in a ditch filled with water. Life moves quick.

It's almost as if we all knew something was going to happen. Some of us hadn't seen eachother in 3 years and at the spur of the moment decided to get together. I'm glad I got to see her before she was taken from us. To laugh with her and enjoy her company. I was one of the 9 lucky ones who (kind of) got to say goodbye.

It hasn't sunk in yet. I am still processing what happened, the phone call I recieved at 10:00 am Thanksgiving morning. I wasn't as close to her as some, but my heart is absolutely broken. She was one of the people that was going to be around forever coming to our 30 and 50 year highschool reunions. I keep thinking it's a joke, I told Aaron to stop joking around with me, I wish he had been.

This is the very reason why I hate that damn road, too many people have both died and gotten in accidents on it. Damn it. She shouldn't have drove, she wasn't okay to drive. Yes that girl can hold her alcohol, but she shouldn't have drove. I wish I hadn't left so early, I could have driven her, I was one of the two sober people there.

I can't imagine what her parents must feel. My mom hugged me and cried when I told her, she said if anything ever happened to me she wouldn't know what to do. Allison's parents are those parents. They lost their daughter.

I'm so jumbled and confused and nothing I'm writing is really making sense, but I have to get it out.

We're doing our own little ceremony tomorrow. It's going to be hard. Really hard.

The only thing that gives me comfort is the fact that she lived her life to the fullest everyday. Whether or not the decisions she made were right for me, they made her happy. I know as she was driving way too fast down that road in her grateful dead plastered Honda she was listening to her country music and enjoying her life. She enjoyed it until the very last second, and we all could learn something from her.

I know she's tipping one back in heaven right now.

I miss you. We all miss you.