It's crazy how much life can change over a short period of time....how much people can change. Summer has passed and winter has settled in and I'm feeling so different. I've come a long way in the past months, I am learning how to open up and let people into my heart and it's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.

I'm getting the urge to flee again though. I don't know what I want. I have met someone who makes me happy, but I just can't let myself be okay with that. He's never somebody I pictured myself with and it's hard to be content. I always want more, more, more. He adores me and the thought of hurting him breaks my heart, but I don't know if I'm cut out for this. I don't know if I'm looking for something serious right now and he wants it that way. I don't think I'm ready.

Will I ever be ready though?